Yes, you read right—I wasted over $27,000.00 on attending nursing school. You see what I did not realize was that I was not supposed to be a nurse—it was not part of my life plan. I should have figured that out when at 19 I applied for a Pell grant and the paper work got lost in the mail. Or when at 25 I was accepted into a nursing school—but because of my needing to work to support my family I was not able to enroll in the full-time program. And in 2008, I paid out $9000.00 to a private school to take the prerequisite classes in order to take the schools nurses entrance exam—and I still did not gain admittance to their nursing program. You think I would have gotten the message that God was telling me I was not supposed to be a nurse—but NO! I was not listening.
So in 2010 I was admitted to a community college nursing program. Despite finding out that it was basically self learning as the instructors did not kindly to being asked too many questions, and that many of the instructors should never had been teaching in the first place—I was passing everything until my last clinical. That is when God stepped in to use two of the instructors to make sure I was not going to pass. The one instructor got me so angry that I called her a bully and that started a long cascade of events that ended at my being failed by the second instructor. It did not surprise me that God used her as she made it very clear she was an atheist. And to make matters worse, I had spent $12,000.00 over the course of two years.
Of course, I was devastated and sad, and it took a while to understand why I was not supposed to be a nurse. I also learned and accepted that God is in control and I now listen to what he, my angels, and guides are telling me. I know now after working as a nursing assistant—that had I become a nurse I would have grown to dislike the occupation and it would have hindered me from receiving the inspiration of what I was meant to be. I am so thankful to God for directing me back to my true life path as my financial and emotional rewards will be greater than I ever would have experienced as an RN.
After all God is in control and will make sure we accomplish our life mission. Amen.