Over the past couple of weeks I have been sleeping quite a bit but last night I had difficulty falling sleeping. I was restless until 1:00 a.m. when I finally fell asleep. This led me to believe that when I awoke in the morning I would have more energy.
My stomach seems to have settled but my appetite has not returned. I had some tea when I first awoke and then a little awhile later ate a bit of yogurt. I finally made it through a bottle of Ensure a short while ago. I may try to eat some white rice with broth later.
I was very wrong about having more energy today. Truth be told, I have much less energy today than I did yesterday. I was hoping to at least shower but it does not appear that it will happen.
I have been lying on the couch all today with the contractions and tightness in my chest being much more frequent than they have been in the past. The hospital did an EKG and chest x-rays but found nothing.
Channeling requires quite a bit of my energy so I have not been able to channel. When I have attempted to channel it has not gone well. I cannot even feel the presence of Spirits now. This cuts me off from my children and family in Spirit. I am not accustomed to this and it greatly adds to the loneliness.
The thing that hurts the most is that now people are aware of how ill I am and yet no one has taken the time today to even ask how I feel. I think since I returned from the hospital I have been asked a total of three times how I am doing today. I do not know what will destroy me first…the illness or the loneliness. – Michelle