So very tragic. By now everyone has heard the news of Robin Williams death. Many people do not understand how this could happen. How could someone take their own life? Some may want to believe it’s drugs or alcohol and that if they had been sober this would not have happened.
These are obviously well balanced people that appear to have control over their lives. However, there are times in some of our lives that we have no control. That something so horrifically traumatizing has occurred to us that we could not have stopped it even if we knew it was coming.
These can be events that some people can deal with very easily but to others it seems to crumble the very foundation our very world is standing upon. A divorce, tragic untimely death of a loved one. Or in my case the disappearance of a child.
When something like that happens the mind is the worst enemy you could have. It becomes a theater that plays and replays that horrible event. While you are awake. When you pass out…because you never sleep. Constantly…over and over. The only way to make it stop at that time is to shut it off. Death becomes peace. You can not see tomorrow…You just want it to stop today.
Fortunately for me God sent someone to stop me and that person never knew that he saved my life. I was to ashamed to tell my father.